Well, tomorrow is the big day. That glorious day that comes around once a year where I get to have what looks like plastic salad tongs and a prickly thing inserted into my private parts. Oh yes, tomorrow I get to go to the gynecologist (“Get to” sounds like it’s a privilege or something.). I’ll be having my yearly breast exam and pap smear. I’ll also have to get my perscriptions for my birth control and sleeping medications. I just hope they don’t pull that sneaky trick where they stick their finger up your bum without telling you. (I’ve only had that happen once.)

Image from Natalie Dee.

Oh joy, what fun I shall be having tomorrow at 2:45.

Edit: So, I just got back from the doctor. There was a man nurse, and I was semi-freaked out. Usually the nurses stay with the doctor during the actual exam. Luckily, he didn’t stick around. The regular nurse came in for that part. Yay for having prickly things scraping around and cold fingers pushing on my insides. :tongue:

I am exhausted. I have been all week. It’s probably the fast that spending two weeks covering a first grade class has caught up with me, mixed with a cold I think I’m getting. Either way, I am so incredibly tired.

The school year’s almost over which means it’s that time of year again where I worry about next year’s job. I’m trying not to worry. I really am. Sometimes it’s hard though.

The county I worked in posted eight teaching jobs that will be available for next school year. I’m not really excited by this. I feel like I should be jumping all over these opportunities, but I feel discouraged for a number of reasons. First, I know (well, I feel pretty certain) that several of the positions have already been filled and are just being posted as a formality. Second, I don’t really care too much for any of the schools that have open jobs right now. Third, the idea of working in another new place for the third year in a row bothers me.

I just wish I had an “established” career. I know it takes years to settle into a job, but I’m really tired of constantly having to move all my stuff around from place to place. I finally found a school I feel totally comfortable at. People like me. They value what I do for them. I am appreciated. I can’t say any of those things about my teaching job last year.

I guess I just have this fear of turning into someone who hates their job but continues to work at it for their whole life. I really like what I’m doing right now. Yes, I get paid way less than I should be, but I enjoy it. It’s fun. I’m good at it, and people recognize that I am good at it. Is money more important than happieness? Well, sometimes it seems that way!! Sometimes I feel like I’m being lazy by wanting to keep my computer lab job instead of being a teacher. Sometimes I feel like I’d be wasting my degree by sticking with my computer lab job, or that I’m being selfish. I could really use the tons more money I’d make from being a teacher.

It’s not that I don’t ever want to be a teacher again. I’m just still really “traumatized” over the Lexington thing. It’ll take a long time to really get over that. That’s why I really like my job now. Everyone is nice to me. I’m doing a good job, and everyone lets me know. I feel….important as cheesy as that may sound. Lots of people have told me that perhaps the Board of Education might want to snatch me up for their Technology Department there. I don’t know if that’d ever really happen, or if that’s something I’d be interested in. I just don’t know….

On another note, Colin found on on….Tuesday, I think, that he was finally approved for his Green Card. We’ve been waiting forever to hear about it. We had our interview in July or August of last year (I think, Colin can and will correct me if I’m wrong) and we were told his FBI background check hadn’t been completed yet. I made Colin call and talk to someone about it a couple of weeks ago. So now we just have to wait for the Green Card that’s not really Green to come in the mail. That’s one less thing to worry about now! Yay!