okaaaaay! so, i’ve been busy/stressed.

let’s see, i took off a few fridays ago (mental health day), and i took off the friday my parents went to the daytona 500. then i took off on a monday. i left early on a tuesday. yes. i am avoiding school. or, i was anyway. like, who could blame me, right? here’s the scoop-

1. i went to the doctor. i was waking up nearly every morning feeling nauseated, sick, yuck. i also wasn’t sleeping well at night. i was exhausted. the doctor sucked 3 vials of blood out of me, gave me ambien (sleeping drug) and zantac for my stomach. colin asked me if i was depressed and said if he was me he would be. soooo… i asked the doctor. i have lots of the signs/symptoms except the suicidal thoughts bit. the doctor said if these drugs don’t make me feel better i might need something like zoloft. anne tells me she’s on it and it definitely makes a difference. so, who knows. maybe i need happy pills.

2. anne videotaped me one day last week. it went well. i thought it went pretty good, but then when i watched it back, it looked even better. i guess i was sort of proud of myself. it wasn’t perfect, and i was interrupted twice during the lesson, but the kids were engaged and “got it.” yay for me.
3. we had a staff meeting today minus principal lady and psa. it was about what we are happy with and what we aren’t happy with. there were way more things we aren’t happy about. lots of people are stressed and don’t like their jobs these days. i knew i wasn’t the only one, but hearing the dis-satisfaction of everyone else was quite pleasing for me. it sucks that i’m the one getting all the attention though since i’m new. principal told me before that the behavior problems in my room were my fault because these kids aren’t getting in trouble anywhere else (except maybe specials) and it hit me today- THESE KIDS DON’T GO ANYWHERE ELSE (except specials). derek and hunter are with me ALL DAY LONG!! ahhhh! that makes me so mad. grrrrrrrrr!!!

4. i got new glasses. yay! ^____^

apparently my dad told the superintendent of hopkins county i’m looking for a job. my mom saw dr. edington and told her of my peril.

granted, i know teaching is like, one of the most stressful jobs out there, but this is not the meaning of life here. there is more to it than this bunch of crap i’ve gotten myself stuck in. it’s so dumb sometimes. school’s out in may, so it’s almost over and then i have a wedding. every day that goes by, it just gets more and more stupid. i do not want to conform to that stupidity. i do not want to be drug down with into the firey manlion pit of hell, and i won’t be. it’s just hard to be one of the only bananas in the bag of runts so to speak.

at least there is no school on friday.